Thursday, November 13, 2008

Are We Breaking Up Or Making Up Or Both?

How do you pick up the pieces of a relationship that has been shattered into fragments so small you need a magnifying glass? When is it time to let go no matter how much you love or how much it hurts? What do you do? Who do you ask? How do you know if it's worth it or not? And what the hell is a "break"? I have no idea as to what the complete answers are. I would first think that one should evaluate how they feel. I mean how they really feel. Does the bad feeling out weight the good or vice versa? Have you reached that breaking point that everyone has when your mind and heart says "ENOUGH"!? Some it takes longer to reach that than others which doesn't mean anything. At least I don't think it means anything. How deep can love really go? When the other person says they have had enough why do some of us still try to hold on even though the inevitable slaps us in the face with a backhand twist? Do we really fear being alone or away from that person or do we just fear that long waiting period until the next person? Sadly the truth can be that there might not be another person. If I were a great optimistic I would say that's not true any one can find someone at any time. But I've never been much of one of those, what you call it Pe-sah-who? Sure you can hook up with another person or two or three but I'm talking about that feeling where you feel like you can( again) start all over and plan a future with them. That can take forever. Or so it seems. I guess another question is are you a risk taker? Because that's all it is. Unfortunately when you no longer have a say so in together or not and the decision has been made for you, you have automatically been thrown into that risk category. Only it's not the voluntary one. It's the one that was forced on you that eventually you will get used to. How low do you go to stay or how high do you jump leave? After you've tried and tried and tried and tried, do you try again? Are you stupid for trying and selfish for not? I could go on and on with these hypothetical questions but why? I don't have the answers any more than my love-ex-er... I don't have the answers. Do you?