He Left Me

The man I am in love with left me. He stopped loving me a long time ago. And now he's gone. I tried everything I could to make him stay but he told me my everything wasn't good enough. Now he's with someone else doing what he has always wanted to do as long as it is not with me. And I am here alone heart and soul broken been a month and still the pain burns me as though the fire has just been lit. He has made no attempt to contact me. His last words to me were that we shouldn't even talk. I thought he at least loved me but I was wrong, so wrong. It kills me everyday to know he's gone and he doesn't or probably never really loved me. How can I be so in love and he so not. How could he just walk away from me and not care? He will never know how bad I'm hurting or what he has done to me and I'm sure he doesn't care anyway. Most of the time I just want to crawl in something and cry and most of the time I do. All of the time... I do.

Are We Breaking Up Or Making Up Or Both?

How do you pick up the pieces of a relationship that has been shattered into fragments so small you need a magnifying glass? When is it time to let go no matter how much you love or how much it hurts? What do you do? Who do you ask? How do you know if it's worth it or not? And what the hell is a "break"? I have no idea as to what the complete answers are. I would first think that one should evaluate how they feel. I mean how they really feel. Does the bad feeling out weight the good or vice versa? Have you reached that breaking point that everyone has when your mind and heart says "ENOUGH"!? Some it takes longer to reach that than others which doesn't mean anything. At least I don't think it means anything. How deep can love really go? When the other person says they have had enough why do some of us still try to hold on even though the inevitable slaps us in the face with a backhand twist? Do we really fear being alone or away from that person or do we just fear that long waiting period until the next person? Sadly the truth can be that there might not be another person. If I were a great optimistic I would say that's not true any one can find someone at any time. But I've never been much of one of those, what you call it Pe-sah-who? Sure you can hook up with another person or two or three but I'm talking about that feeling where you feel like you can( again) start all over and plan a future with them. That can take forever. Or so it seems. I guess another question is are you a risk taker? Because that's all it is. Unfortunately when you no longer have a say so in together or not and the decision has been made for you, you have automatically been thrown into that risk category. Only it's not the voluntary one. It's the one that was forced on you that eventually you will get used to. How low do you go to stay or how high do you jump leave? After you've tried and tried and tried and tried, do you try again? Are you stupid for trying and selfish for not? I could go on and on with these hypothetical questions but why? I don't have the answers any more than my love-ex-er... I don't have the answers. Do you?

Appreciating your good man.

I don't want to give all of you the impression that there are no good men out there and that every man is about cheating and breaking your heart. This is not true people. There are some good men out there. I have one, not to say that we don't have our fair share of problems because we do. Every couple does. What you have to do is distinguish between what is worth the fight and what isn't. I mean honestly is there any good reason to ever have anger leading your relationship? The answer is no to all you hot heads! We are not perfect but you should strive to make your relationship as easy and blissful as possible. I mean this is the person you want to be with, right? This is the person you love, right? This is possibly the person you want to spend the rest of your life with, right? (Hey baby- wink wink) So why make it hard? And I know I know I know it is a challenge to pick your battles. Hey I am still learning. But you have to if you want your love to last. That is what you want, isn't it? Well, isn't it? Lovers have to learn to respect one another, love one another, treat one another, talk to one another, and most importantly for men (here it is ladies) respect his space and not nag him. No I am not fighting for the blue team at all. Girl Power Yea!! LOL! Okay for real, I am fighting to keep my man and I think you all should. I love my man and although he may get on my last nerve he is my man. I chose this man. So he can't be all that bad. He brings me joy in many ways. That is a question you need to ask yourselves. Is this person worth sticking it out and making it great while you do it? If so then you have to give as well as receive in order to have as much of a happy, balanced, and fulfilled relationship as possible. I say this because there are too many people giving up on love, on marriage. As far as cheating goes, we are all human and we all make mistakes. I can not tell you one way or another how to handle that situation. That decision is yours alone. So in the mean time cherish what you have and love that person who is so dear to you as though you'll never see them again.

This is for my bae

The Tall Tell Signs of Cheating

How do you know when your significant other is cheating? And more importantly what do you do about it? First of all people let me say that I am no expert in the field of trying to figure out why people cheat, when they cheat, how they cheat, or what to do when they cheat. I will say this on the record though, " You should have solid proof before you accuse, like catching them in the act, pictures, video or audio of the act going down." Otherwise you are wasting your time because what are they going to do? Yep! You guessed it. They are going to lie about it. Some of them are so bold as to lie even when the physical irrefutable evidence is staring them in the face. So how do you know when your lover is cheating on you? I guess the first signs would be your gut feeling. Most of us dismiss our first instincts on a lot of things but normally we are right. I'm not sure what it is maybe some mystical power we all hold within ourselves that gives us that gut feeling about something. Then you have the small things you start to notice they he/she may or may not be doing. You talk to your lover every day at a certain time but lately they have been unavailable. You know things like: I was busy, I didn't get that call, my cell was dead, I was asleep, I was still at work. I don't know people make something up, they do. Or maybe they don't come over as much, they are so tired now, or now all of a sudden they want to go out with their friends when they normally chill at home. You being a human will have brought these things to their attention and what do they do? "What are you talking about? It's not like that. You're being paranoid." Is what you get for your efforts in getting them to come clean. Because what do we really want people. We want honesty. We as Americans want options. We want to make the decision to be with you knowing what kind of person you are. Knowing that you are a lier and a cheat. That way when the crap hit the ceiling fan and gets thrown around the room making it a grotesquely unbearable place to be in, we will only have ourselves to blame because we made the decision to stay rather than have that decision made for us. "I am playing the fool because I choose to not because I am fool enough to not to see the Tall Tell Signs. Oooo!" No one likes to have their options or rights taken away from them. I guess where this game takes it's twist is that in relationships you have no rights or options or whatever you want to call them. Instead you have, Umm, ISL - Inner Subconscious Lies. Yes that's better. Yeah I just came up with that. ISL are the lies you tell yourself when you enter a relationship or a binding emotional agreement with another person. You subconsciously tell yourself that being faithful is a right and that person wouldn't OMG couldn't violate your right to have a honest and faithful lover! What-Ever! We feed ourselves these ISL's. And that people is our down fall. This is where the heartbreak comes in. Because (and I know you have never heard this before and I do so hate to be the bearer of bad news but) along with all the other diseases and viruses out their ISL weakens your immune system. Because you have allowed yourself to believe these lies that you created every pore, every sense, every organ is susceptible to ailment due to ISL. This means when you find out the truth by admission or guilt or just plain old SSC ( Stupid Sloppy Cheating) everything hurts. "My heart hurts, my head hurts, I'm so sad I can't get out of bed, I can't stop crying, when will the pain end?!" I have no idea. Which leads me to the next question people. What are you going to do about it? Hey I'm not Dr. Phil so don't ask me! Seriously what do you do? Do you stay with the person? (Hey in case you didn't know they say once a cheater always a cheater, if that helps you at all) I guess you have to weigh your options. What does that person bring to the table? Do you truly love them in order to stick it out? Do you think they love you? How many time have you been through this with that person? Will you be able to trust this person again? Can you be with person after they feed into your ISL (Yes they can do that); After they promise you that it will never happen again, it was a mistake, Blah Blah Blah? Can you deal with that and not bring it up a thousand and one times for any apparent reason because at this stage all your senses are heightened and you can detect bull, lies, prying eyes, and you can even detect when a cell tower is down or not. I mean at this stage your Inner Subconscious Lies get in bed with TCT - The Conscious Truth. And when that happens all reality as you know it is guessing game. You don't know which way is which, driving you mad with frustration, making your lover mad because they get accused of cheating when they blow their nose, leaving you both in emotional turmoil. Eventually you will do one of two things: Leave ( rarely the first choice), or you just say "Freak it!" (Sorry folks trying to keep it PG) You just deal with it until you yourself become a cheater.

The End

X's and O's

We were so in love and I thought that there was No One (Alicia Keys) that can have replaced you or make me stop loving you. And you would have Never (Jaheim) treated me wrong because I was the One (Tyrese) you wanted to be with so much you could Suffacate (J. Holiday) without me. When we started to have problems and you started acting like I was nothing. We broke up again, again, then Once Again (John Legend). So I dropped hints for you to Love Me Like You'll Never See Me Again (Alicia Keys). But maybe you didn't care or change. I begin to Remember (Keyshia Cole) when I was your world. Crying so much because you were no longer the man of my dreams but a Heartbreaker (Tank). I guess she finally picked up that I was fed up and heard. You started thinking Maybe I Deserve (Tank) her to leave me. Regret setting in. But by then I had met him and we were on the down low. Hush (Jaheim). I had to go My Dear ( Tweet ft T.I.). This new man came right on time and had me calling for the Cops Up (Lyfe Jennings). He showed me was all about me. And he promised we would Slow Dance (John Legend) all night long. That's when I realized I Should've Let You Go (Keyshia Cole). Now he tells me to Work That (Mary J Blige) and remmenbers to say Shawty You A Ten (The Dream). Your loss, huh.

Missing Love Tonight

Tonight I cried. Cried because I do not understand love but I long for it so badly. At times I hate love, want to hurt love, want to leave love. But I never forget that I love love. Tonight I was feeling so sorry for myself because I miss love. The way love holds me, kisses me, touches me. The way love loves me when love loves me sends bolts of bliss and happiness through me like electricity through power lines. I feel alive and my heart beats so fast I just know this feeling is too good to last but I need it too. Tonight I cried because I miss love and if he only knew mabe he'd come to me. Mabe I would wake and my love would be here like he used to come when he knew I was hurting for his love. Only if he knew. Only if he cared.

I love...but does he?

Women have so much trouble just trying to please their men, don't we? They have their double standards. You know they can do it but we can't. Yeah right! But what do you do when you are hopelessly in love with your man? How do you please the unpleaseable? You have to make sure you give them their space, don't call them so much, don't be so affectionate, they don't like saying I love you all the time. I mean all we really want is time and affection. We want to be secure in the thought that you guys love us and miss us just as much as we do. Is that so much to ask of you? I am in love with my man but let him tell it I'm the reason for all the problems we have. Why can't men just call back when they say they will? Don't they know that "I'll call you back in a minute" to us means within the hour to us? Don't they know that from the time we wake up to the time we fall asleep we are thinking of them? Or when we ask what they have been doing it is not always about us thinking they are cheating it's because we just want to hear about them. Even though pretty much all of them get mad or irritated about his because they are doing something they shouldn't be. My man gets mad if I text him too much, if I call too much, if I make a suggestion that sounds to him like I'm telling him he needs to do this or that. Do any of you women feel me? Why can't they see you just want to be around them? You just want to be included in everything.
Here are a few tips for you guys. We wouldn't get on your nerves so bad if you would give as much as you take, if you would consider us for a change. Things you guys should do:
Call back when you say you will
Tell us you love us ( only if you mean it)
Call us just to tell us you miss us
Text back
Answer the phone the 1st time
Don't wait on us to call all the time
Kiss us more
These are just a few little things that guys could do that would not kill them to make life with your girl easier. Then maybe there would be no more nagging or at least what you call nagging. It's all about being thoughtful and courteous to you woman. Never forget to let her know that she is special and in return you would get more than enough of this:

Baby I See You Working Hard
I Want To Let You Know I'm Proud,
Let You Know That I Admire What You Do
The More If I Need To Reassure You, My Life Would Be Purposeless Without You (Yeah)
If I Want It (Got It)
When I Ask You (You Provide It)
You Inspire Me To Be Better
You Challenge Me For The Better
Sit Back And Let Me Pour Out My Love Letter

Let Me Help You
Take Off Your Shoes
Untie Your Shoestrings
Take Off Your Cufflinks (Yeah)
What You Want To Eat Boo? (Yeah)
Let Me Feed You
Let Me Run Your Bathwater
Whatever You Desire, I'll Aspire
Sing You A Song
Turn The Game On
I'll Brush Your Hair
Help Put Your Do Rag On
Want A Foot Rub? (Yeah)
You Want A Manicure?
Baby I'm Yours I Want To Cater To You Boy

[Chorus]
Let Me Cater To You
Cause Baby This Is Your Day
Do Anything For My Man
Baby You Blow Me Away
I Got Your Slippers, Your Dinner, Your Dessert, And So Much More
Anything You Want Just Let Me Cater To You
Inspire Me From The Heart,
Can't Nothing Tear Us Apart
You're All That I Want In A Man;
I Put My Life In Your Hands
I Got Your Slippers, Your Dinner, Your Dessert, And So Much More
Anything You Want, I Want To Cater To You

[Verse 2 Kelly]
Baby I'm Happy You're Home,
Let Me Hold You In My Arms
I Just Want To Take The Stress Away From You
Making Sure That I'm Doing My Part (Oh)
Boy Is There Something You Need Me To Do (Oh)
If You Want It (I Got It)
Say The Word (I Will Try It)
I Know Whatever I'm Not Fulfilling (Oh)
Another Woman Is Willing (Oh)
I'm Going To Fulfill Your Mind, Body, And Spirit

I Promise You (Promise You)
I'll Keep Myself Up (Oh)
Remain The Same Chick (Yeah)
You Fell In Love With (Yeah)
I'll Keep It Tight, I'll Keep My Figure Right
I'll Keep My Hair Fixed, Keep Rocking The Hottest Outfits
When You Come Home Late Tap Me On My Shoulder, I'll Roll Over
Baby I Heard You, I'm Here To Serve You (I'm Lovin It, I'm Lovin It)
If It's Love You Need, To Give It Is My Joy
All I Want To Do, Is Cater To You Boy

[Chorus]

[Bridge Michelle]
I Want To Give You My Breath, My Strength, My Will To Be Here
That's The Least I Can Do,
Let Me Cater To You
Through The Good (Good)
The Bad (Through The Bad)
The Ups And The Downs (Ups And Downs)
I'll Still Be Here For You
Let Me Cater To You
Cause You're Beautiful (You're Beautiful)
I Love The Way You Are (You Are)
Fulfill Your Every Desire (Desire)
Your Wish Is My Command (Command)
I Want To Cater To My Man
Your Heart (Your Heart)
So Pure Your Love Shines Through(Shines Through)
The Darkness We'll Get Through (So Much)
So Much Of Me Is You (Is You)
I Want To Cater To My Man




Let's see! Men do a little and get all of the above. How can you lose? I don't know mabe I'm asking for too much or maybe I'm just being unrealistic. How many of you women still feel special to your man? Maybe it's just over-rated to want to feel special now a days.